Headed in the Right Direction!

Well, it's late and I don't have a much to blog about but my goal is to be more timely with my weekly weigh ins. It's been a good week and the weigh in shows progress in the right direction. Down a little more so that makes me happy. I'm at the lowest I've been in over 10 years.

Back to Real Life it's Week 34!

Well, I've been home from Arizona for about a week now and starting to settle in/accept the emotions that came with the trip. As I previously blogged, a very precious friend (love you Karen!) has moved from the soggy/soppy Pacific Northwest to Mesa Arizona where she can be toasty warm and hopefully pain free!

While preparing to drive miss Karen (it was a great roadtrip by the way...aside from crazy weather!) I found myself being less mindful of my actions both in terms of food intake as well as exercise. The thought of her being so far away was terrifying and heartbreaking. She's my safe place, my quiet zone, by precious friend. I went through the motions of getting her moved with a heavy heart but grateful to be the one lucky enough to help with the adventure. Karen has a great family of fur babies...she trusted me to help her get them to their new home and I feel honored by that.

Now that I'm home and back to real life, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my emotional eating. It's been a problem for many years. I'm an emotional person...I've been told that by several people that know and love me so taking that to heart is going to be a huge step in the right direction. There are times when I wish I WASN'T an emotional person...BUT I am!

My visit to AZ was filled with smiles and tears...it was great to spend time with family (I got to see my brother Kevin from Tucson) and friends that I love dearly. Emotions are a good thing but "using them for good" is essential. SO, use your emotions to tell the people you love just how important they are to you.

I feel as though I've found some clarity through tears of sadness and joy


AND to get back to weekly weigh ins again...here's my most recent weight. I'm not terribly disappointed by the gain because as I mentioned, I'd been making some unhealthy choices HOWEVER, while in AZ I did take daily walks in the beautiful Arizona sun! I'll be back in July to soak up some more Vitamin D. Hopefully I'll have had a little of that here in WA by then too!

Meet Margie Bear

Let me introduce you to Margie Bear...

She's the snuggle bear that lives on my bed. She's been with me for just over a year, bought just after Valentines Day. There she was sitting on a top shelf in a Walgreen's store...their clearance items had all but sold out and she was all alone. I was drawn to her and at the time I didn't know why but it didn't take long for me to realize the connection. She reminded me of the bear my niece gave to my mom when she was dying from pancreatic cancer. My mom held that bear and literally fell into a deep sleep, waking with a smile when she realized she was still holding the bear.

Am I too old to have a stuffy to hold at night? Nope. I find myself feeling so comforted by that little soft bear and the memory of my mom and her peaceful face. She loved that bear and it meant so much to her to have received it from my sweet niece Alexis. Mom's bear now lives with Alexis and I hope she knows that she's not too old to sleep with a stuffy.

I hadn't named her until my granddaughter asked me - "Nammie, what's your dolly's name?" My mom was loved by many children that she cared for in her home. They called her Margie...it seemed fitting.

I've had an emotionally draining week. I've cried tears of sadness, fear and joy and struggled with a bit of a cold. Arriving home from Arizona, I basically flopped into bed and passed out from exhaustion. The next morning, I woke with Margie Bear in my arms and I couldn't help by smile.