YoYo's and Spirals

To those of you who love to quilt like I do...those two words, YoYo and Spiral are design elements that many of us love to incorporate into a quilt. An antique YoYo quilt can conjure up memories from childhood of a comforting moment in time where you were snuggled under such a treasure, counting the beautiful "flowers" created by the YoYo pieces. Spiraled quiting stiches winding their way throughout a quilt, bringing your eyes to the neatly pieced blocks created by the hands of someone who loves you...beautiful images indeed.

However...those aren't the images I'm experiencing right now. I truly am struggling with my journey. I am YoYoing between moments of strength and weakness, joy and sadness, control and chaos. This battle is so strong and I'm afraid of failure. I'm stuck in a place where the emotional (and mindless) eating seems to be winning more often than not which feels like I'm spiraling out of control. Writing it here is both embarrassing and freeing at the same time. I absolutely refuse to go back to where I was and by putting this out here, it's real and NOT hidden which is how I got to where I was at over 300 pounds.

Thank you for "listening"!

Thank you Karolyn...

...for the accountability. It really is what this blog is all about. Creating another level of accountability. I'm the one that has to put in the effort of losing weight and being accountable to myself for the choices I make. HOWEVER...it's when friends like Karolyn ask me for an update that I'm reminded of the support team I have and can rely on.

SO Karolyn, and anyone interested in an update. I have lost another pound BUT that is after I gained several and was too embarrassed to post that. In the interest of "full disclosure" (smile), here are the pictures of the last two weigh ins I did.





One UP and one down. I'm still headed in the right direction and I continue to move more and eat less. It's such a battle of wills and the fact that I'm an emotional eater is something I struggle with every day.

BUT, I know I'm still moving forward with this journey. I've now officially been an ACTIVE member of LA Fitness for over one year. That membership in and of itself is not a record...I've joined and paid for memberships for years without using them. The record is the "active" part. And I'll continue to be an active participant in my life. No one else can do it for me BUT your continued encouragement and support means so much to me.

p.s. pedicure done...no toe hair per my frister's request.